My life in a nutshell

Well… This post is a bit about what’s going on with my life atm. Currently, I haven’t been in a very positive state of mind. I’ve been doing as many things as I can to keep myself busy here in Malta. Long story short the original dream plan that I had for myself before coming here, didn’t go as planned. Partially it is because what we thought would happen… us traveling around Malta and Europe, taking epic videos and photos, creating a vlogging channel about crypto… turned into us being at home 24/7 and my bf has a tons of things to do online for his type of work, and I only have events to plan when they come about (they won’t start up until October). I have constant meltdowns and always turn to the thought of “maybe I should just go home”. Whenever an action actually comes from this thought I suddenly can count more than a handful of reasons why I shouldn’t go home.

Homesick

I thought that I was doing well with moving so far away from home but I think that I come to the realization that I’m just a bit homesick. I miss my friends, family, and my life back at home. The reality is that here, I have more opportunity. The opportunity won’t come if I sit on my ass and wait for it. So, plan B is to stick to plan A and start making my YouTube channel for crypto and explore this social media marketing world to it’s fullest while I have no other obligations at this time. Well, until we start throwing events in November, then I can keep myself busy with it both.

Fear.

Fear does play a big role in it all. The fear of not getting enough views on my channel. The fear of coming back home and living in my ‘comfort zone’. The fear of staying here and being unhappy. The fear of not contributing enough. The fear of the unknown. I keep letting fear and these negative thoughts consume me, and I need to start making positive things happen.

Change starts now.

From here on out. I’m going to dedicate each day to working on my YouTube channel. I’m going to try my best and that’s all I can do. I’m also going to block out all the negative thoughts going on in my damn brain and just say “FUCK IT”. LOL

Anyways, I just needed to write this out so I can update you all on my reality because social media makes everything look like smooth sailing when it’s not. LOVE YOU ALL.

XO,

Hunter Kelsi